The Pre Mountain Climbing Jitters...

Have you ever been staring at a symbolic mountain, knowing that you have to climb it despite the fact that danger increases with every step you make? Well that is the picture I'm facing. My mountain of course is college. Climbing the college mountain is like climbing K2 (shout-out to NCSU for making me read "Three Cups of Tea" over this summer. Sarcasm!!!); which is the 2nd highest peak in the world, but the hardest to climb. You have to tackle the ridges that are classes while still trying to maintain your footing which represents your sanity, relationships, religion, and morals. On top of all of that, after you make it to the top or graduation, you need to descend, which isn't so bad, but still tricky. Your descent is your transition into the job market. But, currently you standing at the base looking up thinking "I can do this." Right now, although I'm saying "I can do this" I still have the jitters. College doesn't scare me, but the pressure of the situation and the reality that could be loneliness does. I'm getting pressure from every angle. I have take "these" classes to graduate, I have to have "this" GPA to keep my scholarship, and I have to go to "those" events in order to stay in the scholars program (which by the way aren't all free)! AND with enough pressure to crush metal I have deal with being taken out of my little bubble and being placed in ALL NEW surroundings. But that's OK. I can do this. I believe in myself. I guess the purpose of this blog was to reassure myself that I got this and that I can do this. Also, It take pressure to make a diamond. So if you find yourself looking for the peak of your mountain, remember "you can do this," just look a little higher and keep your eyes on God and you will be just fine!

Reverse Stoplight Mentality... LoL

So I'm at the yellow light about the next phase of my life, but I mean it backwards. Instead of getting ready to stop, I'm getting ready to go. Clever huh? Anyway, if you recall my last two posts, I didn't feel anything about the transition I'm about to make to college, well all that mumbo jumbo is a thing of the past. I'm am ready to go to college, and you wanna know why? Well I know that the "rest of my life" starts as soon as I step foot on that campus (for good). Well that's all for now. And please don't start stopping at green lights and vice-versa. LoL.

Anesthesia...

You would think that while being on the verge of graduation and embarking on the adventure that people call college, I would be ecstatic; but I'm not. I don't feel anything. I'm more excited about being able to sleep in than the idea of being in a totally new environment. But at the same time, that doesn't mean that I am not happy/excited. I am so ready to go to college, I'm just not jumping up and down. But why wouldn't I be?...

The Prelude To My Life

There are only 1.5 (.5 = Exam Day) days left in my high school career. Feelings of anxiety and nervousness are setting in. I feel that I am ready for college, but I'm not sure that college is ready for me; by that I mean that I have many goals and aspirations set for myself. So, what's the purpose of this blog? Well this is my way of documenting this transition period of my life. Thus far everything is going smooth. I'm accepted to college and it's already paid for. What more could I ask for? Well I really don't know, I just feel like life has something bigger in store for me, but I just don't know what yet. And although I know my major and minor for college, I'm still trying to figure out what exactly I want to do. Most of me knows what I want, but part of me doesn't. So maybe, subconsciously that is what I am doing this blog for; to find myself.